10.26.2004

kwarto

maglilinis ako ng aking kwarto na puno ng galit at damit at mga bagay na hindi ko na kailangan...
nakaraang hindi na pwedeng ipagpaliban...
mga liham ng luma kongpag-ibig at litrato ng isang kahapong maligalig...
dahan-dahan kong inipon, ngunit ngayon kelangan ko ng itapon...

di ko na kayang mabuhay pa sa kahapon
kaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon...

may jacket mong nabubulok sa sulok at inaalikabok na sa lungkot...
may panyo ding ilang ulit ng niluhaan..isang patak sa bawat beses na
tayo ay nasasaktan...

alaala ng lumuluhang kahapon
dahan dahan ko na ring kinakahon
natagpuan ko na ang tunay na ligaya
lumabas ako ng kwarto't naron sya...

kaya mula ngayon, magpapaalam na sayo ang aking kwarto...BABAYU!

10.19.2004

ganjazz

When the moon shines, from the heavens above,
life will be sweet,so green and so young
hemp will be ruling my brothers again
if you got the ganja, then pass it my friend
When the moon shines, from the heavens above,
life will be sweet so green and so young
i open my mind as i lie on the floor
join me as we both live in extacy.
Dive in our hands and you’ll see
Send me away…
While the song winds, id be bouncing around
id just be chilling and standing we ground
Opening the hearts of the people as we
sing on melodies that makes us so free
While your mind flies, we’ll be playing our song
killing the buzz that we have all along
Toke up and dope up is all that we do
Fuck it fool we never said that you should too

-cheese-

oh man! reminds me of my college days...paycelabenrakenrol! \m/





kwentuhan

minsan nangyari toh sa buhay ko. sa antipolo..sa retreat house, kasama ko ang isang ka-auxi ko.

kanina pa tayo magkasama
umaga na pala...
maya-maya lang ay may araw na
kahit tayo'y pagod, buong mundo ay tulog
ikaw at ako
derederetso lang na walang pakialam
kwentuhan lang..ala namang masama
usap lang..ibaon muna sa limot ang lungkot
tatawa tayo sabay seryoso
unti-unti kang nakikilala
ang sarap mo palang kasama
dati kasi, tahimik ka lang palagi
ngunit ngayong gabi,
parang kay rami rami mo nang sinabi
kwentuhan lang..ala namang masama
usap lang..ibaon muna sa limot ang lungkot
...dahil gusto kitang makilala't makasama
umaga na tulog ka na
kay himbing mong managinip
kay sarap sarap mong umidlip
samahan muna kita...
samahan ka, wala namang masama...
kung samahan ka, kahit tingin nila ay masama...
samahan pa din kita...

10.18.2004

music

music is like languages: the more languages you're able to speak, the better person it makes you!

10.11.2004

jeepney music!

thinkin of my everyday urban life...aside from hearing the distinct rhythm of people,marching like ants as they walk from mall to mall, office to office, accompanied by their blending voices. also aside from hearing different engines or any engine like sound you can imagine...more interesting than this however, is the distinct music that i hear from the uniquely different jeepneys that i've come to know very well...

i guess, given the fact that regardless of what music the jeepney driver put on, it's still a treat that adds to the experience of commuting...some people say "you are what u eat!" but for me this time is "YOU ARE WHAT YOU RIDE" the fact that the jeepney is a status symbol for our country will never change, and the fact that, just like a person, a jeepney reflects some kind of "personality" as shown by the music it plays. the streets now, for me, becomes one large music store where i can sample their wares four just 5 pesos and fifty centavos, and each jeepney is a listening booth where i can sit back and enjoy my trip. with this in mind, the saying that "it is not the destination, it's the journey which takes you there" really proves to be true...

Echo

There's something about the look in youreyes
Something I noticed when the light wasjust right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worththe fight
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I'venot seen?
Something infinitely interesting
There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something, someonecontrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing
Your biggest fear will be the rescue of you
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I'venot seen?
Something infinitely interesting

-incubus

10.08.2004

ayaw pa paawat...usapang malupet! (PART 2)

ryangoan823: sige lang..usap pa tyo...
ryangoan823: enjoy naman dba?
maisa_chinkee8: goks aka goksmeister, the blogger, the addict, the love of kv
ryangoan823: kv?
ryangoan823: baka kc...
maisa_chinkee8: kc pla
ryangoan823: UHUH!
maisa_chinkee8: eh sori na
ryangoan823: kaw may gusto ka ba sabihin??
ryangoan823: labas molang yan!
ryangoan823: ipopost ko toh sa blogsite ko...
ryangoan823: usapang malupet!
maisa_chinkee8: May iniisip akong mga pagkakataon sa buhay ko na nasayang
ryangoan823: go!
ryangoan823: share molang...
maisa_chinkee8: pero hindi ko lang maintindihan kung dpat ba talga syang sabihing syang or sana pla
ryangoan823: feel free to say anything...this is a free country u know?
maisa_chinkee8: dahil sa buhay pla natin, hindi mo maintindihan ang bagay hanggat hindi mo nalalagpasan
ryangoan823: tama ka jan..pero may mga bagay na sadyang naiintindihan lang din naten...
ryangoan823: un ung mga praktikal na bagay..
ryangoan823: may mga bagay din na kelangan pang ulit ulitin para lang maintindihan natin..
ryangoan823: may mga bagay naman na d talaga natin maintindihan...maisa_chinkee8: dhil ang buhay natin madaming limitasyon
ryangoan823: oo tama ka jan kapatid...
maisa_chinkee8: at sa sobrang dami na nya, dinadagdagan pa na kaisipan ng tao
ryangoan823: pero..tunay ngang masarap mabuhay..
ryangoan823: napakaswerte naten dahil tyo ay humihinga..
ryangoan823: sa buahy kase..ating nararamdaman.
.ryangoan823: lungkot man o tuwa...
maisa_chinkee8: sa buhay kase...nararamdaman natin ang uhaw ng pagibig
ryangoan823: ang importante..tayo'y BUHAY! we feel... we love...
maisa_chinkee8: at pag kapawi ng uhaw, masasabi mong masarap mabuhay... prang ganito
maisa_chinkee8: pero naisip mo ba na bakit kelangan makadama ng pagibig bago mo masabing msarap mabuhay
ryangoan823: un nga ang masarap..mag hirap....
ryangoan823: parang sa sex..
ryangoan823: masakit pero masarap..
ryangoan823: pero minsan wag mo pilitin kase baka dumugo....
maisa_chinkee8: haha...
ryangoan823: pero tama naman ako diba???
maisa_chinkee8: masakit pero masarap...
ryangoan823: ang buhay parang sex..
ryangoan823: minsan nasa taas ka..minsan nasa baba ka..
ryangoan823: may mga bagay na d para sayo kaya "WAG MONG PILITIN BAKA DUMUGO!"
maisa_chinkee8: TAMA KA DYAN...
ryangoan823: maymga bagay naman na kelangan mong paghirapan...
ryangoan823: kaya "MASAKIT PERO MASARAP!"
ryangoan823: may mga bagay naman na d na dapat mangyari..dapat ng pigilan..kaya "TAMA NA HUNNEY! TAMA NA!"
maisa_chinkee8: ang buhay may mga limitasyon..."WAG MONG PILITIN BAKA DUMUGO!""TAMA NA HUNNEY! TAMA NA!"
ryangoan823: may mga bagay naman na sobrang saya kapag nangyari kaya "OH! GOD!"
ryangoan823: ganyan anag buhay parang sex....
ryangoan823: dats ol..tenk ya..
maisa_chinkee8: haha...
ryangoan823: ayos ba?
maisa_chinkee8: ayos nga eh
ryangoan823: so ano post ko na toh?
ryangoan823: o usap pa tyo...
ryangoan823: may gusto ka pa bang pag usapan????
maisa_chinkee8: WE have options and choices then we decide kaya may nasa taas at may nasa baba...
ryangoan823: TAMA!
maisa_chinkee8: at ang buhay nasa pagdadala, prang sex
maisa_chinkee8: depende kung panu mo dadalhin sa point na yun
ryangoan823: ahaha..tama ka jan..gets ko....
ryangoan823: diskarteng marino....ahahahah
ryangoan823: santong paspasan....
ryangoan823: kanya kanyang diskarte...
maisa_chinkee8: kanya-kanyang style din
ryangoan823: tama...
maisa_chinkee8: dahil ang bawat isa sa atin ay may kanya-kanyang trademark
maisa_chinkee8: haha
ryangoan823: may style an nakaharap...kung san hinaharap mo lahat ng bagay..
ryangoan823: may nakataliko..kung san takot kang harapin ang katotohanan..
ryangoan823: may nakadapa...parang tinulugan mo na lang ang problema....
ryangoan823: mayn paikot-ikot..ala naman pupuntahan...
ryangoan823: meron ding pruo palabok..parang foreplay..ala namang resulta...
ryangoan823: haaaaay..
ryangoan823: buhay...parang sex...
maisa_chinkee8: haha, may nakalimutan ka
maisa_chinkee8: panu pagnakaupo?
ryangoan823: ano?
ryangoan823: pag nakaupo..parang pinagdedesiyonan mo mabuti....kase "lets sit and talk a while..."
ryangoan823: ayos ba?
maisa_chinkee8: ayos!!!
maisa_chinkee8: pareho tayo ng naiisip na reason.
ryangoan823: APIR!
ryangoan823: BERIGUD jabjabjab!
maisa_chinkee8: ISANG PADYAK PA!!!
ryangoan823: *uuuuuummmmm!
ryangoan823: lokohan na toh...
ryangoan823: post ko na toh..

usapang malupet! (PART 1)

BUZZ!!!
maisa_chinkee8: nawala ka eh
ryangoan823: ahahaha..taena gusto ko magsulat..
ryangoan823: d pako masyado mainspire..
ryangoan823: aprang gusto ko magsulat sa pagibig..
ryangoan823: i mean ung 2ngkol sa pagibig.
.maisa_chinkee8: sulat mo lang kung anu nararamdaman mo
maisa_chinkee8: sigaw ng damdamin
ryangoan823: uhuh
maisa_chinkee8: wag ka ng magdhilan ng kung anu pa man
ryangoan823: ayos yan ah..
maisa_chinkee8: di mo maiisip yan kung hindi mo nararamdaman
ryangoan823: "SIGAW NG DAMDAMIN"
maisa_chinkee8: PUCHA!!!
maisa_chinkee8: i got carried away
ryangoan823: ayos ka talaga..
ryangoan823: SIGAW NG DAMDAMIN...IKAW! alam mo na kung sino ka...kelangan kita..duamting man sa punto na akoy namroblema...nais kong pasalamatan..sa pagpapadama mo sa akin ng pag ibig na walang kapantay,,ikaw lang ang nakapagbigay....oh kc...ahhahhaha
ryangoan823: ala lang..
ryangoan823: ayos ba??
ryangoan823: ngyn lang yan..
maisa_chinkee8: PUCHA
maisa_chinkee8: carried away ka din?
ryangoan823: mejo...
maisa_chinkee8: pero hindi din
maisa_chinkee8: PUSO!
ryangoan823: lumalabas na anamn ang aking pagka blogger...
ryangoan823: ahhahahah
maisa_chinkee8: SIGE GAMITIN MO YAN.
maisa_chinkee8: SIGAW NG DAMDAMIN
ryangoan823: pero d pa ako satisfied..
ryangoan823: konte pa..
ryangoan823: konting seryoso pa..
ryangoan823: pano na???
maisa_chinkee8: d pa ako satisfied...
maisa_chinkee8: bbakit ang tao di nasasatisfy?....
maisa_chinkee8: bbakit ang di ka nasasatisfy?....
ryangoan823: kase ang we have unlimited wants...
ryangoan823: according to philo101..
maisa_chinkee8: tama....
maisa_chinkee8: at may bgay bgay...
maisa_chinkee8: na hinahanap mo
maisa_chinkee8: kahit alam mong nasa iyo na, hawak mo na
maisa_chinkee8: di ka pa din nasasatisfy
ryangoan823: may mga bagay naman na nasa kamay na naten pero d naten napapansin....
ryangoan823: o kaya naman we just take it for granted..
maisa_chinkee8: dhil ayaw mong mawala sa'yo kung ano yunn na sayo na
maisa_chinkee8: kahit andyan na...pilit mo pa ding hinahanp
maisa_chinkee8: dahil namimiss mo
ryangoan823: TAMA!
ryangoan823: pero kelangan may marunong tyong tumanggap kung anuman ang ibinigay sa atin..
ryangoan823: kase mamaya baka ito na alng ang pinakaimportante sa buhay nten.mawala pa..sayang naman diba??
maisa_chinkee8: tama ka dyan
ryangoan823: haaaay nako..buhay..
ryangoan823: pero ngayn maligaya ako..
ryangoan823: alam mo kung bakit?
maisa_chinkee8: kunwari hindi ko alam
maisa_chinkee8: HINDI!!!
maisa_chinkee8: BAKET?
ryangoan823: kase may bagay na nde ko inaasahan na dumating pero nangyari....
ryangoan823: dumating sa buhay ko si KC....
ryangoan823: alam mo...
maisa_chinkee8: ano?
ryangoan823: sobrang natutuwa ang puso ko kase may taong katulad nya na nagmamahal sakin...
ryangoan823: parang imposible talagang mangyari..
maisa_chinkee8: kakaiyak...
ryangoan823: pero...nangyari..
maisa_chinkee8: at ganu din naman sya sayo eh
ryangoan823: at salamat dahil nangyari..
ryangoan823: may mga bagay na nawala...
maisa_chinkee8: accidents really do happen in our lives
ryangoan823: pero atleast may duamting..
ryangoan823: at sya na un..
ryangoan823: haaaaaaay...
maisa_chinkee8: accidents really do happen in our lives
maisa_chinkee8: or lets not call it accident..
maisa_chinkee8: biglaan
maisa_chinkee8: akalang mong wala pero dumatin
maisa_chinkee8: impromptu pero perfect
ryangoan823: biglaan...in a sense na d mo akse inaasahan..bagay na dumarating ng d mo namamalayan..impossible,parang sa sine lang nagaganap,pero nde pala..nde rin sya panaginip...kundi pawang katotohanan..at salamat at ako'y buhay apra aking masaksihan..ang magandang bagay na inalaan sa akin ng poong may-kapal...
maisa_chinkee8: PUTA!!!
maisa_chinkee8: GOks, where are you?
ryangoan823: bakit naman???
ryangoan823: m here...
maisa_chinkee8: kaw ba yan?
maisa_chinkee8: gcng gcng
ryangoan823: oo naman..
an823: bakit?
ryangoan823: si goks toh..
ryangoan823: goks aka goksmeister the blogger...
ryangoan823: sige lang..usap pa tyo...
ryangoan823: enjoy naman dba?

10.05.2004

ASTIG TO CHONG!

teka teka, mahirap naman kung lagi na lang tyong seryoso...so, eto...man-trip muna tyo!

eto na.. eto na...

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at CmabrigdeUinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are,the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at therghit pclae.The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed itwouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed erveylteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.Amzanig huh?

bigdaddy...i owe u one man! peaceloveandrockandroll!!!

atat...

minsan may mga kanta tayong naririnig tapos feeling naten na tyo ung nasa kanta...

nakakatawa lang isipin na parang napakatanda ko na para maging ganito...

kaya sana wag nyo ko tawanan...

wag nyo ko pag-isipan ng kung anuman...


gusto ko sanang makita ka
kanina pa ako atat sa'yo
medyo naiipit lang ako
sana'y maghintay ka lang
hindi ako mapakali
sa aking upuan
wala na dito ang isip ko
nauna na riyan
malapit na kase ang uwian
sa wakas makikita muli kita
patungo na po ako
sa sasakyan
wala bang jeep na di puno?
sasabit na lang
tama bang bumuhos na lang bigla ang ulan?
shempre lusaw ang
engineering ng buhok
medyo malapit na ako
sa eskwela mo
sana'y matupad na ang nais ko...
-rivermaya
(between the stars and waves album)

10.04.2004

"samahan nyo ko sa isang paglalakbay"

well, para sa mga ka-auxi ko..nde ito ang talk ni tita dolly...ahahhapero grabe pala talagang tong blogspot! nakaka adik!eh, eto na naman ako..nakiki-uso...ahaha! mejo nag-isip ako kung ano ang susunod ko na pwede ilagay...mejo dumaan sa aking isipan na nag post pala ako dati bago ako mag boards sa PRM yahoo goups..at mejo bumulaga lang sa aking isipan muli ang aking mga pinagdaanan...kaya kung inyong mamarapatin hayaan nyo na isama ko kayo sa isang paglalakbay...

july29,2004:
well, malapit na mag boards,d na mabibilang ang mga oras and pupunta nako sa testing center ko, uupo nako sa examination seat ko and i don't know what will happen next...truly and i'm proud to say that my college life is over and the board exam is yet another experience...pero after the boards ano na ba talaga??? =( but, thinkin of the countless hours of studying anatomy, physiology, kinesiology, neuroanatomy,etc... i would just like to share to you guys what ive learned from my former mentors which guided me. it all started with a question: papaano mo masasabi na MAGALING ka? hindi porke't mayaman ka, magna cum laude o magiging board top notcher ka e MAGALING ka....hindi din porke't maimpluwensiya ka, o di kaya e madami kang connections, o kahit na successful ka sa career mo ngayon...papaano mo masasabing MAGALING ka?MAGALING ka kapag ginagamit mo ang kakayahan at talino mo upang gamutin nang walang reklamo ang pasyente mo...MAGALING ka kapag hindi nababayaran ang prinsipyo mo...MAGALING ka kapag ginagamit mo ang lahat ng iyong makakaya upang tulungan ang iyong kapwa at ang inang bayan....pero sa totoo lang guys, nakakapraning talaga tong boards na toh...alam ko d lahat ng makakabasa nito eh, makakarelate saken pero siguro this is just one way of releasing my tension...sobrang naiiyak na talaga ako... isama nyo na lang ako sa mga dasal nyo...salamat sa inyong lahat....paycelabenrakenrol!

ah shiet! flashback! pzzZZZZzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZzZZZzzzzZZZZZZZZzzzzzZZt!

"Tsong,Relax ka lang. Hindi ko na-feel yan, pero I am imagining na parang kapagmay test kang pagdadaanan na isang major test or whatever. Kayang-kaya mo yan. Maniwala ka sakin - MAGALING KA! Si Superfriend na bahala sayo. Basta ba't nag-aral ka e. :)"
"goks!!!! :) (thats why something tells me that i have to open thisspecific daily digest from my inbox becoz i dont normally hve enuftime to read all the messages in my inbox kaya minsan nadedelete nalang)...its a gud thing i caught up with this email of urs before itgets to be deleted...well, first and foremost re ur email...U are thatperson...MAGALING KA goks!!! :) trust me!!! not ONLY becoz, as uvementioned, ur capabilities to pass, even to top the boards but becoz umade use of every talent God has given u...really, i think there isntanybody talented as u are, that i know very well, who put them intogood use and even shared it with people who havent really discoveredtheirs yet...uknow, self-sacrifice small or big, as long as the service rendered isgenuine, never comes unnoticed....for it and it alone, u will recievejust recompense of reward.....i know u can do it goks....believe inurself...becoz i do!!! :) and no matter wat happens, ur still datgreat person as uv always been to me!! :)"

"gudluck sa boards mo!!! sobrang proud kami sayo. kta tayo. isang starbucks ka ulit sakin pagnapasa mo. hehe. :) ingat palagi"


"anak, kayang kaya mo yan! go meet your destiny"

sa inyong lahat, salamat sa lahat ng suportang binigay nyo saken!

malapit na ang pebrero..lalaban ulit tyo!..PUSO...PUSO!!!






10.03.2004

new deep

i'm so alive..i'm so enlightened
i can barely survive a night in my mind
i've got a plan..
i'm gonna find out just how boring i am...

ever since i've tried trying not to find every little meaning in my life...
ive been fine..i've been cool...
with my new golden rule...

numb is the new deep...
done with the old me...
and talk is the same cheap it's been...

i'm a new man..
you wouldn't know me if your eyes were closed
i know what you'll say..
"this won't last longer than the rest of the day"
but you're wrong this time...